Monday, November 10, 2008

Well its about time!

Well I have had this blog for long enough to actually post here. I can always find reasons not to post & not to share, but since I already have two other blogs, one at livejounal, and my other one at Enchanted Folk and I have a hard time keeping but with both of them. But I told myself that I would get a blogspot page and I could find a way to remember to post to all three of them.

So, here is my first entry to get things rolling along. The more I post to my journals the easier it becomes. I have never been the journaling type. I usually like to keep things in my head for as long as possible and very likely will never pull them out.

My life has taken so many turns in the past 6 months since my 4th was born with a heart defect & has recently has his second of 3 open heart surgeries. Before he was born, I thought I knew what life had given me & I was not expecting any changes. Now my life has drastically changed & I now just sit here wide-eyed taking it all in...wondering what to do now.

Just when I think I have a tight hold on everything, my path suddenly changes...and it is not one of those veering slightly to the left kind of changes either. There are steep & treacherous, twisting & turning paths, with very little warning. One of the things I have learned about myself is that I cope with huge life changes and a drastic turn of events very well. I do usually have major meltdowns in the middle of it all, but after all is said & done & I look up from the rubble & settling dust, that I did in fact make it through another day and that not only am I stronger than I was when I woke up, but I am actually that awesome mom my kids believe me to be.

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